The facial expressions or slide show of one's own mind in A Person I Use to Know can only leave one feeling like they have kicked their self in the tail through out many times in their life.
For the personal mistakes that keep getting repeated. The bucket lists that never got accomplished. The goals or dreams that left one unfilled or voided for this reason or that.
Perhaps, disappointment is the personal mirror of reflection that most find it easier to avoid or escape than facing the reflection of one's own life because it didn't quite turned out what it should have been or could have been for the hopes we all once had - that now appear as forever gone.
Does it really have to be this way? Does disappointment have to taint each of us? Must we be forced to emotionally survive and accept the consequences of our choices of the life we live? Must disappointment come to rear it's ugly head to break our hearts or to personally remind us that it was not others who let us down as often as we neglect and let our own self down by personal interpretation? The self-destruction we bring upon self from disappointing speculation or assumptions that we internally entertain and occupy our thoughts and emotions with. Will the madness of disappointment ever stop? Will the insanity of our own productions of disappointment reality ever escape us completely and just leave us alone? Will we ever admit to our self that our interpretation and interaction with our disappointment can be as harmful and unhealthy to us as the individuals who give us disappointing factors in our life?
To each their own answering to these questions and more will be the beginning steps to determine your healthy or unhealthy relationship with disappointment and the sadness,anger or anxiety that follows your bouts of disappointment and the course of action you take from it.
In learning all about the 8 primary emotions - I am finding a rainbow of wealth and enlightening I have never thought possible about myself. If a person can accept their self completely in their mistakes, mishaps, and errors as easily as they do the accomplishments, pride, and celebration moments - life would be grand every single day even when bad things happen.
One could be sheltered with peace while holding the umbrella in a drowning rain storm. One could be hugged by a tornado while a cement shelter beneath the Earth. One could be happy and peaceful first before all the emotional weather of life's uncertainties could immobilize them or cause self-destruction to become the first option for an unhealthy life versus the seeking and obtaining of new skills to become emotionally healthy.
In the scenario I give, shelter of peace is not granted by the umbrella but in learning how to obtain and apply peace within one's self before the storm drops a cold, wet mist upon you. The hug that all will be ok and you will believe it begins within and not the cement shelter as the tornado churns outside. The happy and peaceful inside is there to be resourced upon with healthy tools and skills you learn so no matter what goes on outside in life - as the core of you - nothing can take away your peace, happiness, and ability to be validated and reassured that you will be OK and all that you must endure or face medically, mentally, psychologically or emotionally will ever disrupt the quality of life that you want of healthiness for you. It's not to say that bad health days won't occur or that shocks won't come along that will try to toss you - but it will say with education of self that you will be ready.
Emotions are really the least of formal and professional educational teachings and understanding. For most, it is truly a heritage or social culture learning of nature and nurture that guides us how to feel emotionally, how to react emotionally and how to act upon our emotions. Emotions are a very powerful and wealthy information database for all human beings. The strongest of emotional impulses have saved a many life when one person puts their self in harm's way to save another from a flaming fire or a horrific car accident that produced a gas leak in the wreck. The weakest control of emotional impulses have left many feeling they had no one to turn to for help or to ease their pain and they have no solution in sight so they take their own life in allowing their emotions to control them instead of having the opportunity or chance to know that education may have saved them. Emotions are as much of who we are and what we do as any other function in our human bodies. To realize that our emotions can make us healthy or make us unhealthy goes along in a medical science that has yet to be explored upon, researched upon and effective treatment granted.
It is easier to believe that a fast or quick solution of tolerable symptoms can be obtained in a prescription medication that balances the brain and body versus skillfulness that could be taught as any other preventative and healthy maintenance plan to help one achieve a physical healthy life based upon a healthy and balanced diet and physical exercise.
What if the brain's chemistry or the electrical pulses of the brain and body isn't as much as the problem as it is with ill-equipped ignorance and a lack of educational understanding. A lack of a healthy toolkit in dealing with emotions and the 5 senses that trigger and contribute to the emotional output and responses of people. What if it really has nothing to do with the internal working of the human brains and body at all but more to do with the internal thought processing and internal silent whispers of dialogue that each individual does to them self that is the primary switch that enables malfunctioning in the body and brain. By these silent intuition thoughts and emotions that is internally done - we are the breaker box or fuse box of our healthy or unhealthy creations in our body.
The Fight or Flight responses tells us how to survive by secreting the fuel we need to run, yell, scream, or fight back when our life is in danger. The autonomic system follows through by halting and increasing in the body as it is needs to for this Fight or Flight Response to be successful. The 5 senses kick into over time so that the brain and body can decipher internal thought solutions that you need to survive a trauma or a life or death experience. What if once this over active system can be controlled to a more rational, intellectual and educational control than mere impulses that the body runs on with an subconscious auto-pilot? What if emotional education and 5 senses learning and retraining could actually not only help a person in moments of trauma or life and death scenarios but even encourage a person to self-defend them self intellectually against a criminal who maybe seeking to harm them?
I can't say what benefits or positives that could come from learning about the emotions and its effects it could and potential would have in benefits to every one who sought out this type of knowledge but it couldn't hurt - if it works to create an internal healthiness for people who have never known this type of health before. Or for people who are externally healthy with internal unhealthiness going on. There is more benefits to be gained with knowledge and shared among us. I am finding that here in the small social circle of the life I have right now.
It was stated today that my prior dejection and very descriptive paragraph of using the 5 senses and ODP of DBT I am learning and applying through writing for learning retention for my reality application that it was a TMI. (Too Much Information) of private bathroom matters. That the content was inappropriate to do and share. But the boastful and joyful laughter that my writing did contradicted their words of disapproval of my content. The consensus here at my home is that I am crazy and am childlike in my writing, exploring, learning and sharing of progress.
But if it works to reduce symptoms and to gain control of something that once was uncontrollable to me, then how can it truly be wrong or unhealthy after all? If you can take an unhealthy situation and learn new ways or skills to make one's self healthier and increase quality of life than who can judge the self benefits that one obtains to increase their health?
I have always been one to toss traditional heritage or rational, logical and emotional social acceptance practices out the window of my scopes of living and surviving my life. I use a hammer as a stapler. I use a screw driver as a knife. I use a straight razor as a straight edge. I use a spoon as a fork. I use a fork as a spoon. I have used these tools to benefit my life but not in the direct purpose they were intended to be for social acceptance and general practices. But to complete a job or a task - everything is a tool to me including sometimes flipping something that I need to apply in my life to benefit me and others.
In finding, learning and applying with the tools I have around me or seek to help myself - I have always been able to help others.
In learning to forge forward from my own emotional & 5 senses deficiencies with these new skills and tools - I can only hope and be assured by positive aspects of my tool use and applying daily that my life healthiness will only increase and grow toward a more balanced quality of life. I share wishing the same for others that you may always find the tools and new skills to be healthier today and whatever it takes to make you healthier tomorrow too.
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