Halloween is a Holiday

If there was any holiday on a calendar that had the most controversy of the southern rural demographics of where I was rooted and bred - it was the holiday of Halloween. Yes - Halloween does have a right to be noted as a Holiday. If it was not a holiday then why would they publish it on a USA calendar?

But controversies do exist about this day of: costumes, fun, celebrating, treating the children with candy and many bountiful Happy Halloween greetings. Religious I have heard feel it is only enhancing the evil spirits or evil actions of the world. Some do complain about this holiday when they are not into diverse fashion attire and may feel costumes are a waste of time, money and good fabric resources. 

But above all that is sensed more than anything of Halloween is community. Communities all across America coming together to honor the innocence and ever lasting happiness that children lighten this world with and the appreciation for life that they give to us adults. 

The celebrating that adults do with one another in assembly together with music, agendas of games, fun, dancing and contests of who can be the most original or even the very Halloween dedicated who say their Wedding Vows are on a holiday of Halloween.

I can respect those who choose to participate or do not participate. Regardless, that day on the Halloween Holiday calendar still affects each of us for our own personal reasons. 

The dread to see it come. The sorrow of Halloweens past that will never be again or the simple gratefulness that this year of Halloween is gone. 

If the Halloween holiday had a political affiliation it would be of its standing - not liberal nor conservative but community based in the focus of a memorable agenda. If it were only that easy to spread Halloween happy community cheer daily in politics, but it isn't.

Halloween was always one of my favorite holidays to enjoy for myself as well with others. This holiday was as much as about my own creativity of costume creation and feeling decorated one time a year where you could be anything imaginable and accepted with a smile from others even without a word of Hello. 

There was no judgmental statements or hidden agendas to worry about of trust or truthful issues. It was about a day of having fun and sharing that fun with others. 

I do miss the Person I Use to Know who could do up a Halloween as no other. But now that my daughter is almost a grown lady with her own agenda,  I get memory lane this year and vivid pictures that lets me know that I have had a great and wonderful life indeed.

It's amazing the community you do gain in your life when you travel back on memory lane or have mementos or pictures to remind you of them good old days. Even if the way we express or share in our communities nowadays based upon what we must endure or accept as our life now - we can always be happy in celebrating any holiday just because we gain the peace, knowledge, and comfort that we have lived! We have celebrated! We have expressed our self for who we were and was accepted on that day known as Halloween. 

If you are really lucky, you have a loaded rainbow of people from your life to recall upon of those that did hate Halloween - those who kept you young in Halloween - those who celebrated with you on Halloween and those lovely couples that said their hopeful and eternal, "I Do," wedding vows on a Happy Halloween holiday.

Halloween is no doubt my favorite holiday of the year. It is the community of what Halloween represents. The time of year where children are their happiest next to the Christmas holiday perhaps - but it is the time of year where children teach us adults how to let loose - but for one day a year and enjoy the internal youthfulness we still have within us too.

As I sit here tonight on Halloween all solo, by choice, I am happy in knowing that I have had a good Halloween today by traveling back in visual photos of Halloween. It's amazing to know for every year that calendar flips upon the next holiday that even if it does change who or what we are - that we are only a memory away from enjoying the celebrations that makes all holidays a happy one.

I must say in this holiday evaluation of prior years that I realize my costume of choice has been avoidance and procrastination. They have become my two greatest protectors for along time now in my life. It's avoiding many things simply because it's easier for me. Avoiding a hardship while avoiding living life to the fullest it does have too offer as well. 

Avoidance does enforce procrastination as a terrible duet to partake in. Because the longer one can sit with their head in idle or their heart and body motionless - the safer one does feel that no more harm, hurt, pain, frustrations, complications or excessiveness of stress can consume them. 

It's two horrible defenses to have in life. If these two items were costumes they would surely be the ugliest or scariest costumes to be created. But since they are invisible when looking upon a person without further observation or examination of their actions; it would be easy to miss the avoidance or procrastination in our self and others too.

I never really used these words in my vocabulary to define me for along time until they really started to become introduced to me with medical symptoms. I understand the medical science of avoidance in medical conditions but procrastination shouldn't have to be a partner with avoidance! Nor should avoidance and procrastination be accepted as coping skills.

So by next Halloween I do hope to shed this Avoidance and Procrastination three-some costume I am wearing this year - so that by the time this holiday rolls again next year that I will be actively participating in the community of it - anywhere but here. 

No that here is that bad tonight but looking back upon those pictures of a lady I use to know in myself who made leaps and bounds to be a community participant of holidays especially Halloween - I want to be that person again for my costume next year.

Some say New Year's Resolutions are the way to go to think about change, produce change, and be effective in change for one's personal betterment. I think they got it all wrong. 

Halloween Resolutions is where it needs to be because the person of costume you are this year will be different next year and by focusing this Halloween on who you are and the Halloween of next year - you can make a fun change in your life as well have plenty of time to do it. 

Besides, when you tell people that you have Happy Halloween resolutions they will not ask you any more questions about it nor will they beat you up verbally if you fail to achieve them! Saying you have a Halloween Resolution will deter them from getting consumed in what you are doing for yourself anyways! Happy Halloween and may it be a good one for you this year and I wish that next Halloween will be a better Person You Use to Know for yourself too!!!!

Most Listen with the Intent to only Speak

Have you ever noticed that? How many times do you listen to another person just waiting at the chance for their silence so you respond to what they say? How abruptly do we answer with not getting the full intent or delivery of the message? Is this human nature and instinct to defend and offend all at the same time by listening and interacting with others? Perhaps - but who knows?

I think there are many people who have more to say -but feel that no one will listen - so they reserve their response to silence instead or simply choose to give short answers to keep from inviting others inward to seeing, knowing and feeling who they really are.

A Person I Use to Know was very articulate at this. Listening to what others say. Feeling their emotions. Seeing the messages as it unfolded off of their lips. Hearing the tones and pitches of their vocals begging for someone to hear them and tell them verbally what they wanted to hear instead of the sometimes & difficult truth they need to hear versus the sugar coating of what a person responds too instead.

That person was me. For many years, it took alot of personal gut following, courage, bravery, and even perceived insanity at times - to verbally speak a truth that they wanted to hear instead of the sugar coated compassion or empathy they were use to me giving. 

It's a two fold consequence either way. The person who listens with empathy and gives empathy enables many of the problems that others are seeking and verbally begging for solutions. While the opposite side of that fold is that when you sense their want to find a solution listening to them and you give them a solution or options - they do not want no part of it.

I don't know why it has to be that. That if a person changes from their negative interactions of empathy that solves nothing into a more analytical and logical response giver that it leads to many burned bridges that can never be built again or to a constant tension filled environment that it leaves a person no options - but to avoid the conflict or completely delete individuals who refuse to solve their own problems. 

Negativity produces negativity. Positivity takes work, efforts, resources and motivation to make happen. Positive effects can not come when empathy surpasses logical compassion with tools for a user to use to fix their problems and only if they wish for them to be solved.

I am sure many know that Person You Use to Know in yourself too and these scenarios as this. 

Those people that say that you have changed in a negative way - but in reality - it wasn't about a negative from you that you have done - but it is really about you not serving their negativity purposes anyone because you no longer will be cooperative in accepting their negative life choices anymore. Ironic how that works out isn't it? There's a million ways to say it and many quotes out there that define this. But it's true no matter how you look at it.

I firmly believe that if any one is a friend or family in your life - that you can verbally and emotionally resolve problems by facing them accepting them and finding new ways to solve any problems that come along. 

I know, it's controversial information coming from a person that announces the Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Bipolar and seizure disorders I have. These conditions I have of medical science that clearly states these very same internal confrontations of medically controlling the chemical processes of my brain and body while trying to manage my own complex symptoms. Yeah, I sound like some kind of expert from resolution & problem solving don't I? 

But the key to my medical conditions are not what I can do mentally or physically to stop these erratic chemical fuels of my medical conditions but to the control my own personal output as much as I can with these types of complex medical symptoms they produce in my life.

It's about accepting these medical complexities within of the internal flows of the chemical and electrical releases in my brain and body and seeking understanding for the explainable triggers of my conditions. 

Accepting them. Respecting them. Not purposely seeking or doing more harm to myself than what has already medically internal has been done and to decrease those problems of symptoms as much as possible. 

It does not stop the internal chaos of chemical processing or electrical instability that goes in my body and brain but it does decrease the chances of taking something medically bad and making it worse.I get to live and I get to survive! Who could ask for more? Plus it fits the storyline profile of what I am writing about too. If your internal health betrays you and you can not stop it - you still must make a peace with it or the medical condition will conquer you and your life.

Not a permanent fix but a tolerable, manageable, respectful control of resolution that allows me to live daily and to function to the best of my abilities every day.

The same can be said of interactions with others. Taking what we can accept. Working to create a tolerable resolution to the things we can not accept. And at the end of the day, hoping that you did enough and the other will compromise and meet you half-way to keep a friend or family kinship alive and prospering instead of repeated harmful, hurtful and the pains of regret that leads a life into regression instead of progression. Learning to do new things no matter how difficult the problem maybe. 

I don't beat myself up internally anymore with harmful internal dialogues of wishing I would have said this or done that. I just do it or say it now. 

I accept what I do. I accept what I do not do. I take full responsibility in the conversations I have or the communications I use to interact with others. For the receiver of any message is always open for interpretation and understanding and where more than 1 is gathered in conversation - it will always take 2 for the messages we give verbally or in writing to be understood, received, and accepted. 

It's taken me half my life to feel confident in myself to stand up and speak for me. But it's the best resolution mentally, logically, rationally, and medically I have done and am still learning to do.

The tone and pitch of one's voice - as well as their eyes and facial expressions will tell you a truth about them before their mouths even open to speak their words. If we reached out to listen to others with our senses to decipher what they say before we speak in return, perhaps, the resolution or solution they seek is already given to them by the soul of what their eyes reveal - without us saying a word of Yeah, you should do this or Nay, you should not do that.

We take for granted the 5 senses we have and the potential of asset that they can be in our life. When you are over consumed in the 5 senses like PTSD does - you do notice differently and in depth from others. You see, hear, taste, touch, and speak with a profound charge of life that it will literally destroy you or it will help you to keep rising up and above beyond what we should be medically or even is scientifically possible.

Perhaps, if we could all share the internal layering of one another - then we could all gain a new perspective or viewing of a more positive life with effective solutions that would conquer the problems.

But since that is not possible, seeking to understand, accept and being brave in our self is all we have anyways. 

Do not ever let anyone tell you that you are wrong when the burning intuition in your heart is stronger than the objections you receive. To do so - not only will burn a fire in you of what you were meant to be doing but it maybe the only fire you ever have to depend on to survive this life and learn how to live past anything that ever happens to you.

Never Lose the Power of Pen to Be Heard by USPS Mail Messages

Today, I have sent a total of 22 emails out with a projected goal of 31 to accomplish. These emails were sent to various individuals serving as United States Senators located across America. 

These individuals were not my State Senators. But their assistance of requesting help for attentive support of a Yes vote of a pending bill by their Senate Committee - motivated me to email each of them for their assistance and request for help.

This bill is H.R. 2083 - Protecting Students from Sexual and Violent Predators Act - http://beta.congress.gov/bill/113th/house-bill/2083 . This bill when passed into law would provide additional enforced security to children in our American educational system that is not currently offered to children as protection or enforced legally as it should be from convicts employed by our educational systems.

Summary as follows: 
Protecting Students from Sexual and Violent Predators Act - Amends the Elementary and Secondary Education Act of 1965 to require each state educational agency (SEA) that receives funds under that Act to: (1) require criminal background checks for each school employee that include searches of the criminal registry or repository for each state in which the employee has resided, the child abuse and neglect registries and databases of such states, the Integrated Automated Fingerprint Identification System of the Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI), and the National Sex Offender Registry; (2) prohibit the employment of an individual who refuses to consent to, or who makes false statements in connection with, a background check or who has been convicted of one of specified felonies or of a violent or sexual crime against a minor; (3) require an SEA or a local educational agency to report to local law enforcement whenever background check information indicates that a sexual predator has applied for employment; (4) require background checks to be repeated or updated in accordance with state law or local educational policy but not less than every five years; and (5) provide each school employee who has had a background check with a copy of, and a timely process to appeal, the results.
Allows an SEA to maintain an inventory of all the information from background checks conducted on school employees in the state.

According to: https://www.govtrack.us/congress/bills/113/hr2083 - The official Prognosis of this common sense law only has a 28% chance of being enacted. Only about 23% of bills that made it past committee in 2011–2013 were enacted.

How sad is that statistic? I know that our country has many more pressing issues on the docket that take priority and seniority of any above this law. However, when we will start investing a portion of that 28% to approval for enactment for judicial law and enforced protection for our children in this country?

I emailed the members of the Senate Committee of Health, Education, Labor & Pensions today. My email was fairly simply as I had under 10,000 characters and used a Notepad text to copy & paste my communications. 

This made it a breeze to email 22 individuals of the Senate Committee as all their contact information for emailing is a simple point and click on their name and a new window opens. Hit the Contact link and plug away the standard contact information then do a copy & paste of a pretyped message and on the way to send it goes.

I can't help but to be frustrated at my attempts to contact them regarding the importance and priority of the passing of this bill. 

I was sharing my survival story of child abuse as a prime reason why this law must be acted upon to protect children in the educational system. America needs to keep convicted criminals of Sexual and Violent crimes off of educational payroll to protect all children. America needs to do more for children victims of crimes and give importance to judicial and legal protection against revictimization or second offense crimes committed against children.

The auto responses I got back in email is that my mailing address is not in their district and they gave me links to contact the Senators of my own state. Talk about trying to keep a voter outside their geographical area at bay huh. 

As if that wasn't disheartening enough, the 9 co-sponsors of this bill - could not receive my email either due to their Congressional restrictions from not allowing anyone outside their geographical location to contact them. 

I wanted to thank them for looking out for children in this country by this HR 2083 and can not even do that. How rude the lines of communication really are about politics and voter communication in this country.

Email or writing letters are my primary forms of communication. I do not like the phone systems of our politicians in this country so I won't call them. I prefer to put my communications in print to them whether by email or USPS first class letter.

If I have something to say to our elected officials that I feel important - I will let my fingers do the walking or my pen do my talking for me.  If my life could be detailed in a SPLY (same period last year) ratio as employment standards are held too - I am full of lessons I have experienced and learned from to share about not repeating certain aspects of SPLY! I am the greyest color of life I do believe from my circumstances that have left me with many triumphs and traumas as well. But I believe in the effectiveness of using communication to grow awareness, prevention, and community!

I prefer the obvious speed of email over the good old USPS first class letter servicing. I tried my best to find out the date on the calendar when this H.R. 2083 will be presented for Senate docket and to no avail.

So I guess I will just restore my faith in the USPS to sit and manually write a total of 31 United States Senators and mail them a letter and hope it makes it time to pass this law that has only a 28% chance of enacting. I do not like odds of law as this. Perhaps, citizens of this country should really be more active in communicating and holding these elected officials to a higher standard than a mere 28% approval process. 

Could you image the private work sector of employees if they had an evaluation of work performance score of 23-28% ? How many would be fired for ineffective production or fired for failing to meet employment standards? How would companies or corporations exist if their primary target of scoring was a low 23-28% on anything?

 I will manually write 9 Congressional leaders to say Thank You to them for introducing such an important common sense law. Then I will write the 22 Senators who are of the Health, Education, Labor & Pensions Senate Committee to seek their assistance and help to push this HR 2083 to the front of the line so this bill will be one of the very few of the 23% - 28% that gets enacted approval to law. Washington, DC overload of letters - here I come! Increase job security of USPS first class mail another day. Thank goodness I keep a supply of Forever stamps on reserve!

The homework I have did in researching and learning about legal law now in place by states of educational employees is that they are not secure as this measure of law would create to ensure safety for children at school.  

It's scary to know that convicted criminals of felonies, sexual and violent predators can be employed to work in our educational system. 

The horror of reading about the examples and statistics used by Congress leaders who supported HR 2083 is grotesque and unreal. To think that internal crimes exist in our educational school systems against children should motivate anyone who reads these links I have shared - to get motivated and contact the officials that can make or break this law.

Criminals who target children as victims will never stop at the social manipulation they do to gain and retain supporters. They will manipulate others with verbal coercions so that the innocent who genuinely want to help and be equal toward all - will be turned around by these smooth tongue master minds of vocabulary manipulation to make any innocent person feel guilty or any lawful person a criminal to ensure their opportunities to access more victims exist. 

Would you hire a convicted Sexual or Violent criminal to babysit your children or loved ones of minor age? Would you hire a convicted Sexual or Violent criminal to sit your loving pets while you are away on vacation? Would you hire a convicted Sexual or Violent criminal to clean your office or have access to your personal information? Then why would anyone stand by and not voice your concerns to support and seek voting approval in the Senate for this H.R. 2083 - Protecting Students from Sexual and Violent Predators Act.

I know many from the experiences I have had in my life want nothing to do with the political door of processes that goes on past elections. Perhaps, if more citizens, got involved with communications to the leaders of our country - then we could see those 23-28% of approval rise to the level of what we want from our country and expect from our leaders as citizens.

I have written my personal state officials many, many times about political matters that directly affect the citizens of our state. But to me - the community of politics extend beyond the geographical boundaries of West Virginia. I do not care if a politician is in my state or sitting in session in Washington, DC. 

Where there is Internet - there is a way. Where there is a USPS delivery truck - there is a way. Where there is phone dial tone (if you can afford it) - there is a way.

There is really no excuse for any of us as citizens to sit back quietly and go with the whatever flow that our leaders publish to us in our media. There is no excuse for any citizen to feel beneath the superiors of our land or that they are out of touch to us. 

That is their job - to serve us. The People by the People. I guess until America believes in the community we really are - nothing major will change. The bad get worse. The guilty go free. The innocent stay silent as hostages. It's sad really. 

We all have experiences, stories, and witnessed life as experts in our own geography defined by the rights and wrongs we have lived or survived. 

To correct any wrong we must first admit and accept the wrong occurred. Then we must be verbally unafraid, bold with conviction to what we believe, and vocally courageous to speak to be heard using whatever means we can to make it happen. The only real communication issues we have in America is that we use electronic telecommunications to speak more and the value of our words decrease less as time goes on. 

The potential and possibilities to live an American dream are not dead. They never were. It's just many are more concerned with complaining about things daily that they dislike than stepping up to speak to do something about it.

We can always enhance the rights of life to make something good into something better. We can also seek ways to make human wrongs into human rights. Good can only thrive and survive when a person is willing to take a chance on a good they can not see and believing in the focus of what they want.

To deny children an opportunity to dream in a safe and protected country as America is to create the problems of tomorrow that we can not solve and leave a history behind that taught us nothing. 

Please considering taking a few minutes to email your state Senator to promote support and passing of law of H.R.2083 - Protecting Students from Sexual and Violent Predators Act. You can find your state Senator to email at: http://www.senate.gov/general/contact_information/senators_cfm.cfm?State=WV

I have simplified the writing message process for you - please feel free to copy and paste the text below into the message portion of your state Senator contact.
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My writing concerns consist of legislative importance concerning H.R. 2083 - Protecting Students from Sexual and Violent Predators Act.

I seek your assistance as a United States Senator to promote the priority of this bill. I hope to seek your support with an approval vote of Yes for the passing of H.R. 2083 - Protecting Students from Sexual and Violent Predators Act. 

I am aware that this bill has only a 23%-28% lawful enactment chance according to the GovTrack.us website. 

I voice my support and personal priority to see that H.R. 2083 is passed by the Senate this term and be sent to the President for his signature of law. 

I write to ask that you will do what you can to see that this bill is a term priority and passed to increase children's safety and protection in our educational system. 

Children can not legally speak up for their political rights so I write to speak support for them. I would like to see that our American children could have a political portion of the 23%-28% enactment of law this term. This law will act upon their best interest by preventing crimes committed against children by ensuring convicted Sexual and Violent criminals will not be employed in their school systems. Thank you.

Political Motivation

Probably the most fun I have had in any written form of expression I have ever done is that of Political Motivation! Writing the elected officials over important topics, matters, bills, and topics that affect every day lives. Sometimes, even just the simple writing to vent my disgust helps alot too.

Working with my associates years back on political matters that directly affected our employment was the most fun I had in helping to coordinate public information, sharing useful resources, and contact information. Learning about my own geography of my home state and how it's broken down politically was as much as  a numerical voyage for me as it is was closing the complex gap of understanding the bizarre of political mayhem.

I have said for years that I hate politics. I do not hate what the basic function of politics is suppose to be in its simplicity. I embrace the positive and potential that politics gives America. But I do hate the selfish motives of personal agenda that politics appears to become for many elected officials once they gain those seats of office.

For every politician that exists you will find those die hard fans of those who stand behind their incompetent choices or law passages. Many supporters of a politician would not even know where to begin to find the Yeah or Nay vote that their politician casts. Many would not even know that they have internet access to all the behind the scenes and on the floor invitation to view, read, research and learn of what makes democracy in America and who is truly working as Pro-America and who is against America just by the votes they do - the bills they sponsor and what they reject.

It's sad really. Having political motivation not only empowers us as citizens to reach logically or emotionally eye-to-eye with an elected official but it gives us an avenue to speak and be heard. Though all of our concerns may never be answered, changed or may not create a resolution in which we seek - we can still walk away knowing that we reached out to the highest powers of our lands to be heard the same.

Back in the day, when my favorite webmaster was posting and updating the work affiliated website we did with bill information and contact information - it was the most intellect fun I had.The community of learners we gained proved positive in the support we gained to pass the bill we sought.

I have never quite lost that positive bug to reach out and keep contacting my elected officials. I still promote this type of political education on my own personal posts of Facebook too.

Ironic isn't it? Politics fun? Politics positive? Politics hopeful? Who knows as we each can only choose to get actively involved in politics of our country or simply do nothing and complain the whole way.

I always felt the social hierachy of our country failed to prioritize a system of citizen structure. For if every law or motion gave first thought to our elderly, our Veterans and their families and all who serve, our disabled and our children - when they acted upon anything - it would surely create a positive forward motion that would ripple effect for all of us.

But if you deprive the elderly of their basic needs and neccessities after they have worked and earned their years - we create the hardships they endure and their will to get involved actively anymore & honestly who could blame them? When their prior years of financial, economical, personal, and profressional survivals are based upon lessons that consistently get repeated instead of corrected and prevented.

But if we fail to understand the personal and profressional costs that Veterans, their families and all of service endure to provide our freedom then we fail them and fail to provide them the neccessities of prevention, awarness, social and public support and the basics of life they need in order to function and live a life outside of service. A dedicated term of Veterans service should not have to be paid for with a life or a lifetime taken from them because of the hardships their survivals and our freedom costed them.

Our children in this country should never fear life. When a child fears, their brains and body become medically altered when their fear of life consumes their growing and developing brains and bodies with internal processings that chemically alter what should be normal development. If family, friends, churches or legal law fails to protect and prevent abuse to children - a child will never know that feeling of a safe, equal and protected world. When the line and order of family becomes unfunctional due to abuse - it is up to society to enact and create protection and prevention to children. A child never become a first time victim but when it happens - all measures must be taken to ensure that revictimization does not occur in any child's life. In America, our children are the only financial and economical investment we truly have. We impact today but what becomes of tomorrow is for our children to correct and fix that we messed up or faultered in. Until we learn to value each child for the true entity they are in our society, our tomorrow will fail before it begins because we failed the children.

Our disabled individuals in this country are probably the most socially stigmatized class of individuals we have that reside in America.The lack of education to understand anyone medically defined as disabled enables the stigma to grow and continue. The individuals who are truly disabled do not choose to be this way neither do those who become disabled by circumstances beyond their control. But who is responsible for these individuals when they can help them self? Who cares for these individuals when they are not financially able to hold a job to take care of themself?

Disabled individuals are a two fold topic as children are. Would you allow a child to starve to death because their parents will not feed them? Would you allow a child to be homeless because their parents failed them? Why would you allow someone who is sick and disabled to be without food or without shelter? They do not choose this way of life. They do not choose to be limited or restricted in life. Perhaps, more research could be done with earlier intervention upon our youth to catch medical disorders before they escalate to adult permanent disability could be one avenue to help our disabled. But more than anything, understanding the medical aspects of a person's life goes along way in acceptance.

I feel that if we viewed changes, laws, and policies with regards to our elderly, our Veterans and their family and all who serve, our children, and our disabled then we could create the exact America we dream of. That land were freedom, liberties, and civil rights are given and granted to the truly innocent while protecting our most vulnerable of citizens. By denying to meet their needs and neccessities - we are truly denied our own as well. When we forget to value the heritage of where we come and those that gave us our present lessons and fail to protect those of tomorrow for the potential they have yet to gain - we find ourself exactly where we are today - repeating mistakes of yesterday, learning nothing of today, and being limited where we don't have to be of tomorrow.

So what will you do to get your political motivation groove on. I shared with you my prime interests for humanity and my political motivations. What will yours be?

The Hobby Lobby of Music

Entertainment. What does it mean to you? Today, I will share music. Not in a song. Not with lyrics. But from a fun perspective of courage and one of motivational thinking perhaps, even suggestions of how to use music as a safe coping skill too. 

The hobby of music affects each of us differently and is enacted upon as different in our lives too. The lobby of a song is usually first & foremost created only for profits. That's just the reality gist of it. Mathematical profits of the value of a song or a musical group or performing entertainer clearly define who is at top of their social acceptance game and who is not based upon profits. 

Many a hobbyist create their own form of entertainment for profitable gain and returns. As if a number of money will ever be able to truly define what the value of a person is. Shame that it does though when it never should.

The value of a person should begin and end only in each personal individual mirror of one's own reflection. Profits and money may sustain life but by placing your value upon a dollar is not only hurting yourself but this will deprive your life of any chance of living life happy and healthy as well.

Music lyrics and musical compositions have been giving and sharing joys among strangers for years. The community of music is one of the greatest forms of togetherness we have to enjoy beneath that only of comparison in sports entertainment.

In music, we find ourselves and our emotions. We find who we want to be by a dream of a song. We feel the love we lack in life by musical lyrics or the scream of a guitar that holds us hostage into the sound of perfection with only but the strum of a string. We feel the imperfections of life in the burden of those deep songs that allow someone else to pat us on the back to make us feel as if every thing will be OK again. We feel the knocking of death's door on our life through the darkest of songs created - while never taking that step our self to pull a knife across our wrists or to put a gun in our mouth to pull the trigger. Music takes us to the emotional edge of life with whatever we face without taking us over the edge. Music allows to love someone we can never have. Music gives us all that we want without any of it being tangible. Music gives us life and helps us to secure the respect for our own life and the value we place upon our self as well.

My musical library is as long and extensive as it is diverse. I tend to cling to older fast tempo of rock and roll or country songs on my good days for the greatest celebrations I have. I tend to listen to gospel music or the darkest of alternative heavy rock on my worst and bad days. 

I have those special songs of shared love that I listen to when I need to feel love again. I have those songs that do put increased estrogen in my blood by their whimsical magic of creating and seeking a perfect love. Perfect love never exists but I don't think it's ever unhealthy to keep dreaming about it or doing an imagination dance with the close to perfection memories I have of perfect love either. Music allows me to dream, fantasize, and be happy and fulfilled. Even if only but for a few minutes getting lost in a song.

Even if it's not real - fantasy and imagination are still the most youthful aspects a person can have in their life. 

Bottom line, I know how much music is a daily importance in my life as my personal motivator, encourager, supporter and comforter I have found. 

I wish others more of the knack to use creativity by another - even if they are only produced for profits - to absorb into the potential of emotional healing and emotional strength that musical compositions and musical lyrics possess to give us.

Many great artists of our time have left such works of humanity that unfortunately,  their lives were so over burdened with caring for others by using their music as their expressions of this love - that they succumbed to self-harming techniques that lead to many accidental overdoses or suicides. 

To have that kind of passion for life and compassion for others with gifting of music is unreal and hard to imagine - unless you feel the lyrics literally move the blood in your body to increase your heart rate or to excel your own brain cells to motivation to create positive changes in your life too.

I don't see anyone on this Earth as an expert or superior expertise of one to another. I never have and hope that I will never intentionally belittle my own individuality as this. For being biased about anything without finding out for yourself - not only limits your life but also negatively will end up hurting your life too.

For we are all experts of our own experiences and thus, as potential teachers of positivity waiting to be shared of the resources we have in our intellect, mental, psychological, logic, rational, emotional and humane assets. 

If all people felt the value up on their self as the price of a profitable and tangible item - imagine what we all could be & so much more we could all do & contribute to the human race that we actively but separately participate in every day.

For many, community is obtained by what can be bought & purchased to create an assembly for that community. Community is invested in by the mobility we have and the financial spenditures we do. 

Kindred spirits of like minded hobbies of entertainment in formal or casual gatherings. Birds of a feather flock together comes to mind actually. But what about individuals who can not assemble to their own community because of mobility or financial deprivations? Then what?

Community is as close to a form of music device that you can crank the volume up on. People may forget us. Our former self of A Person I Use to Know may change profusely limiting what we can or can not do. But music never forgets us - so we should never forget music as a daily asset of hobby or even constructive use in our life either.

Ask any individual why they like or love music. Their defining will be as diverse and unique as they are. But ask a person to tell you the positives or negatives that music has been in their life and most will not be able to answer. Why is this?

For music is viewed as entertainment primarily first. But never viewed as a hobby of emotional well-being or daily balance. 

Music has always been a hobby of mine. Learning about it. Exploring it now. Growing it for my own emotional understanding and self-appreciation of the puzzles behind the music. 

It's like I am kid in a playground again and trying to climb those super tall monkey bar that the adults warn you to stay away for fear you'll get hurt. 

But being head strong and driven for one's own fulfillment keeps leading a person to climbing even when scared of falling off those heights - it does nothing to hinder or slow the person from climbing to reach that top. Just because some one else tells you that you can not do something - does not make it true - unless you believe this truth in yourself.

Human beings are as computers. Our brains are a very detailed yet confusing organ that accepts new programming all day long - as long as we are not fearful to keep inputting information into it & trying our best to understand the miracle of our own genetic being. No one else can do this for us. Only each of us individually can.

I don't know about you but the lobby behind any hobby for me becomes uniquely defined by me on what it is or what something isn't of importance to me. 

Many go through life and like or dislike things especially entertainment or hobbies because someone else told them that they were good at something or that they could market to sale something or to reject it because they are not good at it. 

I am more of a liberal for free expression than profitable conformity. I always have been. 

For me, it's sharing the talents, gifts, hobbies or assets that makes our individual life have value and giving that value to some one else who doesn't believe in their self or has no one to believe in them - that makes my missions possible and continously plentiful. I think of those that have had that grey area of life where right is wrong & wrong is right vibes too it.

I think of those, like me, that have had more negative feedback than positive support of understanding. It is for those under dogs as me that I continue to share. Even if I write all day long to a blank audience - it's OK for me. For I know that by sharing one mustard seed - as I come to call it - that one day; a person will come along to read it & that my words of sharing will help their life out when they need some one the most in that exact moment.

The Internet offers many active as well stationary websites. Everything you can imagine is now on the Internet. For what websites are popular today will tomorrow's accomplished historical documentations of progress tomorrow. 

Some win. Some lose. But if you do something to help yourself and to make yourself feel good - your value has already become gained and that is something that no one can give you or take away from you but yourself. 

So celebrate and define life as you will by making sure to retain a little of that courage and motivation and happiness for yourself tpp. The only truth to believe in life is what your heart tells you and your brain actively enables you do too. Everything else is merely a lesson for the making and taking and sharing of.

Hobby Me This or Hobby Me That

To each their own of fun, happiness, fulfillment and entertainment of Hobby. 

Hobbies are something that should be done that leaves a person feeling content about life. Even if everything goes a muck or those bad days return of stress accumulation or financial woes or even medical limitations - Hobbies should be the release needed to cope until the good returns again.

A Person I Use to Know should always has that one factor to their life of at least one hobby of consistency in their life. To look back to see how life, situations, circumstances, and time changes us all. We should never be unfaithful to our self to carry that one hobby with us where ever we go nor should we allow another to talk us out of it or to neglect the hobby of happiness we gain for self.

Writing is my greatest faithful friend. No matter what changes in my life - words, rambling and writing have always been beside me. I have gained more knowledge and positives in my life because of writing as my prime hobby than I have anything else. I hope that one day, even when I am too medically degenerative to see, too feeble to write or too meek to share that I will still be writing or sharing words on paper or electronic recording devices or whatever it may take. 

If there was a Guinness World Record for the most words written or expressed during a lifetime, I would like to be that one person who did it:) Not that I would ever such a contest but having this one hobby for my own personal goal is my contentment and happiness. 

The Band Perry sums life up perfectly in their hit song, "If I Die Young" lyrics: "A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar - They're worth so much more after I'm a goner - And maybe then you'll hear the words I've been singing - Funny, when you're dead how people start listening~"

Often sad but true. The individuals that have shaped and made history are usually the ones that were the most valued only after -they are deceased. Imagine if a person would be honored as such while alive - as they are praised when dead. Ironic how that always works out?

So whatever you choose to do as your hobby - do it for yourself. Share it with others if you choose and if you do not - that's OK. Chances are what you do will be worth more when you are dead anyways! So what do you have to lose by trying a new hobby to mold, craft, and create as the best friend of faithfulness in your life too.

Emotions are as bizarre, diverse and truly hold as many definitions and releases as each individual person does upon the face of Earth. When we lack emotional feedback from others to help us - then shouldn't we do what we can our self to fill those emotional voids too? 

Why do we insist on blaming others when we feel lonely, alone or bitter or angered or hurt by others? When all we really need to do is to imagine - the more we could gain emotionally - by first filling up our self emotionally with whatever we can by having one hobby to do it for us.

Writing gives my imagination the freedom to dream - that even my biological age and my reality circumstances could take away from me. I am just a childish kid again with no responsibilities nor accountability when I write and share. The consequences I gain from writing and sharing are  lessons. Some good. Some bad. But mostly good. I feel ageless, gender free, stress free and the only destination I have truly to write and share is completing a sentence or a paragraph and finding a way to close on a good note.

I wish this hobby of happiness upon any one who is willing to love and be happy with their self first & then grow courage & bravery to share it and keep on doing it.

Let's face it. No one is getting younger as the time ticks by. You don't have to wait 5 - 10 or 25 years to look back and see the Person You Use to Know. Because that person will change right before your eyes in your mirror reflection before you even realize it. Those years will have tick toked by.

So at least have something - created by for you - started by you & will cling to you closer than any one by having one hobby of your choice - to take with you. 

Life always did feel and seem a little brighter every time I write and share. It didn't matter if it were educational to help assist employers, employees or friends or family in general. Writing was a way I learned to hug and love myself unconditionally years ago as a little girl barely old enough to form a complete word or know the function of a sentence. I hope to never lose this desire within me either.

When your final day comes that your life is almost over - how do you want to remember it as the Person You Use to Know? Some one brave enough to stand against all odds to do the right thing for you and others or someone you would rather forget? 

We will have rainbows of obstacles through out our entire life. But learning to steer and control your course is a solo journey we all must take. Even after we wake up one day and realize that the life we have before us is not necessarily what we may have anticipated nor wanted - but accepting it to be - what it is - just the same - you will need that hobby to help see life through - because there will be times - you will truly have no one but you and that one faithful hobby.  That's just how life rolls. Isn't it Ironically Amazing, after all? Happy Weekend:)

Do You Know Your Personality?

 If you do not know what your personality consists of - then I dare you - to take the  Jung Typology Test. 

This test assessment consists of questions that will break down the general aspects of your personality. This characteristic test created by Carl Jung and Isabel Briggs Myer's takes a view of your personality based upon questions that you answer. 

This knowledge can help you to better understand who you are as a person. It can help you to know what your strengths and weaknesses are to hit life full blast and how to tame the dislikable qualities too. 

The fun aspects of taking the few minutes to do this test will help you better understand vocationally what your prime careers should be and what you should avoid doing with the character personality you are. 

No shame in learning about yourself or being profiled in knowledge that can help you in your life. 

I really enjoyed the similarities of historical fiction and nonfiction individuals too. It clearly displays those of kindred common bond individuals as you are and the approaches they took in their life with the same general character profiling that you have. 

What do you have to lose but time? What do you have to gain? Humor and knowledge for starters. Not often we are granted tests in our life that offer both humor and knowledge as the result of what we are questioned ---so go for it at: http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes1.htm

Being sick with the sinuses these last few days, I am pretty much at my own devices of entertainment and keeping myself occupied to stay out of a pit fall of ick entrapment that occurs when one feels horrible.

I found this test by accident while researching the medical use of drinking hot water and cold water effects in the body. 

This was a fun research too because it offered a 50/50 medical debate of skeptics with less of medical and science to help a person decide at what temperature to drink their water. 

But for me, I did introduce drinking hot water in my life yesterday from mere misery to keep from going to a doctor to get an antibiotic. I am still overcoming this head cold mess today but am feeling better and will do the draw tomorrow - if not better to give in & admit defeat and get an antibiotic. Today is 4 days of this personal weather afflicted illness so if I am not superwoman tomorrow - I will go the doctor & realize that my body can not conquer the Mucus Monster I have become anymore. 

My immune system does what it can. But after having a sinus problems my whole life & a septoplasty in 2009 to decrease a genetic issue of abnormally large turbinates and a bloody nose effect of nose breakage when I was 10 years old to pet my loving goat that caused me to fall and bust my nose - I give up that perhaps my sinuses need all the help I can give them and admit that surgery did not fix this problem. I was advised before the surgery that the success rate was low too but I was hoping. But wiht one more day of rest  I will decide tomorrow if I will do the draw if I am not better. One can only take medical defeat so long before they resort to extreme measures to just get well. 

In being down this week - I enjoy the Android tablet and reading as the eyes allow. Occupying myself with this personality test made my feeling bad ~ not-so-bad after all. For the knowledge I gained was not only of an intellectual perspective to apply to my life but a clear illustration of the genetic wonder amazement I am.

These characteristic tests or general profiling of individuals has been around as long as scientific advancements and medical research has. 

For someone like me - who is inclined to have a medical resume as long as my occupational resumes - I find this information enlightening, funny and a great tool that I should have years ago at my learning & desposition to do as I choose with this kind of knowledge. It may have saved me many repercussions of fouls and instead gave me more useful constructive resources to approach within. 

But I do believe that ship has sailed for me as age & circumstances of a hard knock medical life has caught up to me. Because I do my brain's challenges that call me to decrease the harmful overloads of stress that has already medically altered it so I could thrive & survive. So instead - I try to focus more on ways to increase fun or my own happiness to increase endorphins and dopamine to counteract the side effects of a hard knock life.

This interesting test and information I gained was just what a good doctor or medical professional should have ordered - but since more of the medical field look for fast solutions and quick fixes of a pop of a prescription medication - I am left to find my own resolutions of what works for me and what does not even medically.

I do believe in being one's own medical advocate 'cause let's face it. Many deny their own intuitions and instincts when it comes to what medically should be and should be done in their life. 

When a medication causes harsher side effects than the initial symptoms of a medical condition - how is that helping any patient who endures medical diagnosis? That's just my opinion based upon what I have witnessed of adversity in a patients demise instead of bettering their quality of life as well as my own experiences with my own medical conditions.

I highly recommend doing this test for anyone willing to take it upon their self and who has an open mind or open heart of the possibilities waiting to be received when you do.

A Person I Use to Know is historically found when you do this too. For what your test reveals about you will also show you the nonfictional and fictional characteristic personalities of those similar to you as well. It's intriguing to read how someone who is not DNA genetically linked to you maybe more like you in a sense, than you realize too.

I agree 100% with my test results. For occupationally and personally - my results were spot on. 
 Even those similar to my personality traits were eye opening to me as well. For I am learning how they choose to use their strengths or weaknesses and the mark they left on society & humanity. 

That's speaks volumes for someone who has been more of an orphan all of her life - more than anyone could know - unless you have been there too. I have been detested and even outcast by choice & by family members choices because I never did fit in nor did I want to belong to their defining dysfunctions of what they called truth, trust, loyalty, and honor versus what I call these same things.What they called as their positives were nothing but detriment negatives for me. But that's what trauma, abuse and criminals give you.

So to read the strengths and weaknesses of others before me who are generally characterized and labeled as human beings in the same category - I find it healing and funny. 

I find it inspiring and motivating for myself. I find it as intellectually stimulating as I do emotionally fulfilling. I am in many ways just a child betrayed by an adult body with an adult brain and adult life of responsibilities and accountabilities to be met daily --- but at the core of me is a child dreamer where every one can be friends with an imagination that never quits the creating processes & where hope leads my way every day with a dose of faith that is truly unrelatable by most -- but never denied by me that keeps me going.

I am an ENFJ by my results. I am:
Extravert(33%)  iNtuitive(31%)  Feeling(50%)  Judging(11%)

    You have moderate preference of Extraversion over Introversion (33%)
    You have moderate preference of Intuition over Sensing (31%)
    You have moderate preference of Feeling over Thinking (50%)
    You have slight preference of Judging over Perceiving (11%)

Anyone who has ever personally known me in my entire life would probably agree 100% that this is me spot on. My desire to follow intuition and to feel life has always been a wonderful aspect of who I am but it has caused many impulsive and hurtful consequences too. 

I try to always have good intentions in anything I do but sometimes those good intentions do back fire because you can not force anything upon anyone - even if you give them the tools to help them - you can not force them to use them to do the right thing. These are hardest of my life to admit of what I have ever learned & am still learning from. 

I was amazed at the rainbow of diversity that my kindred characteristics had before me too. A Person I Use to Know could be applied here~

David the King of Israel from the Bible - Abraham Lincoln - Ronald Reagan - Barack Obama - Ross Perot, Sean Connery - Oprah Winfrey - Elizabeth Dole - Andy Griffith - Dick Van Dyke -Matthew McConaughey (character in The Wedding Planner) 

Famous Personalities Sharing Your Type

    Bill Clinton, the 42nd President of the United States
    Tony Blair, the Prime Minister of Great Britain from 1997 to 2007
    Clara Barton, the founder of the American Red Cross
    Ronald Reagan, the 40th President of the United States

By reading this & even the occupation lists of what I would be best categorized for and  pretty much have been in my life's employment occupations too was fun. Knowing by nature or nurture or genetics of how they categorize personality traits - I find comfort in knowing that these traits were not just some absurd reactions of life's circumstances. 

These are my traits and what I choose to do with them and still use to enhance my daily life. 

Reading of these icons before me and even their strongest strengths and the good they have done or their resilient boldness to be them self against all odds restores me to a sense of belonging even when technically by social standards - I belong to no one or any thing especially of family linkage. 

There is something to be said and gained from the understanding of what it means to be a humane person above all. Regardless of a test or a medical condition or anything else that can be used to define us and categorize or label us or to produce stigmas - we must first accept ourselves and never quit learning about ourselves as much as we do others too.

Life can be a good thing. Tools and skills should never be forgotten in our lives to keep on learning. To keep on growing to obtain understanding. To keep on being the answer we want in life and applying that knowledge to the kind of life we want to have or don't want to have.

I will enjoy these upcoming winter months to grow my own joys and learning of these individuals who have kindred personality traits in common with me. 

I have gained so much grief in my life and sorrow with the loss of my family and friends who support them - that I will never have a family due to the truth and trust issues of my own DNA complexities. 

Unless one has been there - they can not understand it personally, intellectually or emotionally without seeking to learn about it. To learn about human experience one must open their self up to validating other's experiences as a student would learn. But without it and every one generally feeling as experts in who they are - misunderstanding and labels increase while stigmas keep up divided and separated.

I am not the only one who knows these sorrows, griefs, and losses. For there are many more broken souls in this world than they are happy, fulfilled and whole. Yes, that's my general consensus of my experiences with many people diversities of individuals made up from all geographies, economical, and educational backgrounds. Very few are truly happy with who they are or affirmed with who they are.

For me, learning about these truly inspirational and motivated individuals restores to me something I never knew or had with my own upbringing and what I have yet to learn about myself as an adult now. 

For I have never perfected myself nor have I fully affirmed who or what I am due to so many conflicting issues and people directly involved in my life. But by being able to understand myself beyond the science of medicine or my own personal experiences - I hope to broaden my own horizon in a whole new leap of faith and knowledgeable direction that I have never taken before. I hope to gain new skills that will allow me to create my dreams, fulfill my dreams and to help others find new skills, tools, and knowledge to apply to their life as well.

I use to be the kind of submissive person that would seek to emotionally solve a problem or crisis - without thought of the outcome or even contributions from the person seeking help. Meaning I'd do my part & their part & expect a positive result when it fact - I was using the tools for them & not allowing them to meet in the middle to use the tools them self. 

If someone needed a roof over their head - my door was open. If someone needed to borrow my vehicle - the keys were right there. If someone needed food - I would feed them catering to whatever was in the cabinet with creative magic I could do so that every one would be full when the meal was eaten.

I never had money to loan so that was never an issue. But it was the other good intuition things I sought to do to serve others that would end up in burnt bridges. I learned alot from this too & share so perhaps, my mistakes won't become yours too.

I was hard core on being the tools for others - instead of showing them how to tool life them self or giving them a chance to try. It's a protective instinct in me but it is also a personal fault for myself and those I tried to help of these good intentions too.

Now  I am becoming more of a person that says if "I help you do this - then you must do this for  yourself and me too." Never have I been like that before.

But the last several weeks of my life have become positive outcomes to very negative situations than I could ever imagine - because now I speak up - with this - "I will help you but you have to do this for yourself and for me too" approach now.

I give them the skills they need & leave the hard stuff to them & my gratification comes from knowing that I was honest, even if it hurt, and that the solution reached will not only be applied short term to their problem but using a long term foresight too. That's alot of new for me to venture too from my old ways but learning about one's self helps all aspects of a person's life. 

If a person needs help or assistance from you, help them earn it. Help them by seeking the tools they need and give them back pride in their self to accomplish a positive goal that every one wants. 

There will always be difficult people that come and go from our life. That's just human nature that comes from interacting with others. But until we learn how to be forgiving and sharing the tools we use in our life to give to others to use for them self too - it'll all end in naught - if we do not learn to keep trying of the potential of what works or won't work outcomes will be.

I don't say my door is open to every one anymore. I say the following instead. If you need shelter - I want to know what is going on of why you are homeless. I want to know your contributions to the error you found yourself in to be homeless or what others may have done to you - if you are minor age - that left you homeless. I want to give you personal goals for you to reach and meet if I give you shelter. But you must do these things for yourself and you must do these things for me too. It's 50/50. 

You want to borrow my car - well you will have to go through my 50 questions to fix this short term problem to reach a long term solution. You want a hot meal, well those dishes will not clean them self! See how that works more effectively:)

A Hand Out in life does the hammering and aligning the nail for another's persons benefit. It's usually only a short term solution to a long term problem when Hand Outs are given.

But a Hand Up teaches a person how to hold that hammer. Where to hit that nail on the end and how to hit it perfectly into the foundation of what they want to achieve or be in their life.

America has been giving Hands Outs so long that we have created citizens dependant on government that most have forgot how to pick up that hammer ourselves to build the exact foundations we want. 

Most have never been taught the skills or fail to learn how to gain a positive outcome to a Hand Up situation. 

Until we start learning to trust each other and setting aside our own reservations or fears of using the hammer our self - I am afraid we are constantly going to be creating in society that in which we enabled, catered too, and did for others --- because we didn't teach them how to do it because  it was just simpler to do it for them.

A Person I Use to Know is what we all will become. What we do with this prior knowledge before and after that day of personal analyzing has occurred - is left to each of independently to decide. 

If I can strike an intellectual nerve or emotional response to motivate you to do something differently that contributes to your life or those around you --- then my mission as a self-proclaimed writer, poet, author and blogger is successful.

Consider doing this Jung Typology Test not because a blogger told you about it but because you want the adventure to learn more about yourself and how you can use that hammer in your own life to build the exact foundation that you want so when your day arrives of that Person You Use to Know - you can smile, be happy and be fulfilled because you never quit trying and the adventure of your life was truly worth it!

The Irony of Life

Ironic how life is - isn't it? I rarely watch any news media on the television. It's so depressing - for the most part - I don't know how any emotionally compassionate person could watch it without being depressed from it. 

Most intellects or primary logical thinkers would call it knowledge by keeping up to date on the daily news - however - I categorize it as social mayhem and legalized drama by the journalism skills that have greatly declined over the years. 

The stories that need to be embraced socially are not and the ones that offer the most speculation for profits are what makes the headlines. To find out any real truth of media, you have to read it in print and then go on an expedition of your own research to find out the truth. That's my personal evaluation and affiliation of the news media anyways.

For background noise, I daily have the radio tuned in to my favorite radio station or leave the television on whatever channel the previous person did. Especially, when I am vacuuming, doing dishes or just doing creative things I feel compelled to do daily here and when I am able to do them.

After I did the blog theory concept,  upon what I called the United Way to motivate individuals  to do one act of kindness for some one else daily in my previous blog post ---- the news headlines came on the television about the factual nonprofit organization of the United Way of the Virginias. As this non-profit organization has been on the border of the two Virginias for decades helping our local people.

It captured me when one of the news lady state United Way. I had to pause washing dishes manually to hear this one. 

The news headline was of an employee who abruptly quit their position for failing to do their job. 

Leaving the non-profit organization with many unquestionable and suspicious activities of not filing, paying taxes and then paying interest fees upon the improper filing of their 501k filing status. Not only did it create public shock and will hurt the clients who seek services from this organization but it gave me a laugh like I had not had in a long time.

No one personally close to me but my best friend, knows that my blog exists. As I do not blog for acceptance nor to increase public sales profits or anything of marketing. I am just a lady that loves to write to share ideas and information or education that can help other people. 

I am like a hammer who shares different ways to use the nails you need to accomplish the life you want to make it easier and safer for you to do anything you wish. The tools you are given is up to you to use or not to use. But I enjoy the challenges and thrills of writing, just the same - with or without an audience.

Anyways, this laughter captured me! The song, Ironic, came to my mind immediately by Alanis Morissette.

For my blog to post about the United Way concept was done before the news headlines. Now, if authority did their jobs here and considered citizen journalism or even bloggers as a respectable hobby or occupation - then I would have cause for concern or perhaps worry. But for me - it was a laugh I needed of news media & headlines and a concept I thought of.

Imagine. They read my blog post. They see my analogies of the United Way concept. Then the investigation being conducted of the local non-profit organization. Then the authority officials come knocking on the door wanting to know why would write something as this - while this organization is only a few minute drive from your home. Then the questions begin of if I had any prior knowledge of these discrepancies that this organization is now under investigation for!!! Hilarious if you ask me or perhaps, ironic explains it all.

I won't change the United Way concept I created nor will I stop doing what I am doing. For I have no affiliations with the real United Way organization of any kind. But the funny lesson to be learned when you are an emotional thinker as I am - can be a playground of your own thoughts that is sometimes to hilarious - not to share. If it helps others to be brave to think out of the box of conformity and social acceptance. 

Honestly - if there were ever one word that explains me personally in every thing I do - it would be Ironic.

The irony of it all is that this one word does describe me and my life completely. People are confused and bumfuzzled by the strangeness or uniqueness of other's life experiences and survivals and accomplishments. It's human nature to be curious about others but finding those ways to accept other's different than us are still the primary blockers to growing life and the potential we all have to give and share. 

If one word captures what I am and what I do - it is Ironic & I stand upon it with a smile and happiness that very few could appreciate the knowledge, comprehension, understanding and emotional compassion gained from living all that I have survived and lived through and still do. a

Every occupation I ever worked or task I sought to accomplish in my life - I have went full force. But not without it being Ironic to someone else. For the messages or concepts or theories - I have always shared were easily understood by the intellects and logical thinkers or rejected and only accepted by the emotionally driven ones. Ironic.

But if you truly feel compelled to do anything - take Ironic with you & believe enough in yourself to make it happen. W

e can only be accountable for what we say and what we do - not for what others understand or perceive anyways. If you live behind a wall of fear or are scared of other's acceptance -  it is only you that suffers. It will be you who is hindered in your life by what you choose to do. You can not blame others when you get fearful, scared, or are uncertain. But when you follow your own intuition - Ironic comes and Ironic it will go too. Don't worry about it. Just do it.

Would you ever miss the chance to be happy or laugh or to enjoy something or someone? Then why would you restrict yourself worrying about an outcome that you can not guarantee will work or won't anyways? "It's only stupid if it doesn't work" has to be my favorite sports tag line ever! It's true.

Don't fear being stupid - fear more of not trying & constantly failing yourself more. For it might be the best thing you ever done for yourself. Even if for only a day. 

It feels great to be back writing and focusing ahead for me. One word. One email. One blog post at a time to feel daily accomplished to maybe help another. This fulfills me and gives me something to look forward to every day when I am able. I wish this for every one. 

That which inspires you. That which motivates you and enables you to stay motivated. That you can laugh at the Ironic things of life and embrace the stupid that just might work after all!  

No one can tell you No and make you believe it won't work but YOU~ Go ironically prove whatever you choose to do that makes you happy. Ironic will not only protect you from the misunderstandings that you will receive but it will be some of the most happiest, fulfilling and enjoyable moments to be experienced by your self and especially with others too when you give Ironic a chance to be a part of your life too!

What is the United Way?

Most Americans would see the words - United Way - and probably think of a non-profit organization. For many more perhaps - there is no automatic association of what the words United Way are.

I want to start sharing new ways of looking and viewing at things of life. I want to give a conscience awareness about many topics that people do not daily do of real conscience thought or awareness until things becomes too late. 

When uncontrollable circumstances arise or situations become directly in front of us - that's when most get motivated to do something to counteract a negative surprise with hopes to turn it into a positive solution.

Most of the time being a procrastinator or unconscious participant to life's circumstances - usually will leave you ending into negative, hurtful, and personal painful demise. 

Consider my outlet & views of: A Person I Use to Know - to be as a prevention to many aspects about human nature and life as we know it. Become a conscience person that sees, speaks, feels, and emotionally thrives to grow your own understanding of self acceptance but even embracing the differences of others while you are at it. 

Formal education does validate intellectual knowledge, rational thinking and promoting positive progress. But we decline to asset individual life's experiences and stories of others different than us - we deny the education that we can gain and hinder the positive potential we could have. This is especially of social matters, criminal law, judicial proceedings, economics, profits, growths and revenue increases too. The potential for progress, rewards, and endless possibilities would never cease to exist if we valued each person as an expert of their own experiences instead of simply disregarding those who are different than we are.

United Way is the personal focus I ask you to thrive for. United Way will be the end result to this mission of self-awareness and learning more about cultural lifestyles than you never would probably consciously put yourself into by choice. United Way is being personally motivated to get involved to do something for others that completely different than you do every day. To have an intution and following through with it. Share it. Grow it. Release it. The rewards you can gain are of an emotional deposit that you never knew that you could possess. We are all capable but very few motivated too.

Let's face it. The general population usually does not care about what goes in others lives of those different than they. It's a social human nature thing to not know and realize the potential of knowledge to be gained by learning and understanding others is which are different than you or your life may be.

We'll start with children. For we all have that bond in which we could even discuss with strangers about where we come - who our parents were or were not and the geography of where one lives or used or even geographical locations you may have visited that immediately make for great conversation with others. For whatever reasons, it seems these types of conversation always draw up the most friendliest and experience enhancing encounters I have ever had.

Childhood is the time of life that we believe, dream, and live the most free of our lives. Even in the hardships that childhood may give us - there is still something positive to be gained from it. Even if was just the days of school, friends at school, after hours social-get-togethers or anything else that a person did - it will never get better than those childhood days that we can never return upon.

Now - consider child advocacy and child abuse prevention. Who did you have in your life when you were a child that was your advocate? Who stood by you as an adolescent to be there for you as the only person you could trust? Who protected from you from child abuse? Who abused you?

Now - would it surprise you to know that the same childhood you had is still continuing on today in the life of a child elsewhere? Would it surprise you to know the techniques of abusers in your childhood are using the same skills with even more pronounciation and are intellectually and more educationally deceptive and maniulative with their choice of weapons they use upon children to abuse them - than they were with your abuser?

Some say - I am obessed about child abuse prevention - child abuse awareness & my advocacy to get involved as a survivor who struggles with my healing progress of complex medical conditions - I have because of my abuse. But in reality,  what most do not understand with their fears is that my mission of helping others is not hurting me - but helping me to grow, gain strength, and heal in my own recovery. For every survivor who has ever told me - Thank You for understanding and seeks professional help or every victim that contacts me to help them - this is worth it! I am helping others to get their life back that someone took from them.

I disagree with all the above that people say or fear of what I do because anything of this much controversy can only be a good thing if it strikes emotions in others to create positive change and enforce others to get help they need or to help a victim come forward judicially to face their abusers. We all benefit with a safer world and become united one person at a time by reaching out to another- only one person at a time~

I am passionately motivated to help other children - in any way I can - to help children and hopefully prevent them from becoming a victim of abuse. As the headlines today - prove that children are becoming a minority of the crimes committed against them by criminals who are becoming the majority.

Would you trust a convicted computer fraud criminal to have access to your personal or profressional electronic devices? Would you trust a convicted thief to be your security guard at your home? Would you trust a convicted criminal of illegal drug abuse to be your health caretaker and be responsible for your prescription medications, medical files and records? Would you trust a convicted criminal of financial crimes to manage your checkbook, savings, credit cards or payment books or to do your taxes? Would you trust & allow a convicted child abuser to watch your child, children or grandchildren?

NOW - What would you do - if you found out these facts - out after you got to know someone that you called a friend or family? Where would your trust be in them - after the fact? Would you fire them? Would you retain them on payroll? Would you continue on unconsciously even after you knew the facts of their convictions? 

In reading a Facebook news article about Pedophilia - I read how an attorney was pursuing to change legal laws so pedophiles and convicted child abusers could have their "human rights" restored so they could legally adopt & supervise children in the United Kingdom.

I know from my personal experience of my own case of child abuse - that my abuser had sexually abused a total of 14 minors including reoffending me twice. When I went to a court of law to prosecute him - 12 people wrote letters of Chacter Reference upon his behalf. Zero wrote letters for my behalf or to support me as his victim. 

What kind of equations are this? Where is the justice in this for underage minors? Why do the numbers of supporters for criminals increase while the victim numbers of supporters decrease? Can someone tell me this? 

Where mathematically does this equation give justice? Where are the truthful statistics of this public data? There is none. Because unless victims come forth of their abuse - there is no documentation and there is no public truth to the statistics of victims and crimes committed against them either.

It goes back to having Conscience Awareness and Conscience Prevention. It is about creating a United Way to stop things before they start. It is about being motivated to take action before the damage is done or escalates into a problem that we can not solve anymore. 

It is about doing something every day for someone else besides ourself and the life we are safe or comfortable in. United Way is the only way concept that I know of to call it where we can ever reverse the pain caused by preventable problems. United Way is the only way to hope to grow the community we want that extends beyond any geographical boundary we live in.

Children's playgrounds, dreams, and life soar beyond any geographical location or educational perspective or conventional limitations that adults have. Children teach us to have no stranger danger until someone wrongs them and then it is too late for that child dreamer because they have became a victim stripped of their legal right to be free. Instead they become afraid to trust anyone or how to rebuild trust when legal laws deprive them of this trust. Children of abuse suffer undeniable medical & scientific brain and body damage due to the trauma that abuse does inflict upon them.

What would you do to get involved to help children before they become a victim? What would you say if a child you loved was your victim to help? What would you do if someone came to you and told you they were a victim? How would you help them? 

The silence around these topics produce stigmas that are not truthful nor complete in statistical data. For every one victim or survivor that comes forward - there will more who never will.

I have nothing to lose and everything to gain in my mission to help other people especially children. Most adults choose what they will or won't do to help and change their lives. Children are not capable of making conscience choices of their best interests without everyone helping to ensure their rights, legal protections and giving them a safe world to live in. They are all of our tomorrow. 

How dare we as a society ever curse that which we have today. Our present today clearly defines the treatment we have given to the children before us? What will that teach us about our tomorrow  of what we need to do or not to do as lessons of experiences learned as well? Does anyone ever consider that?

I follow my own intution of a question to guide me in life. "What would I have wanted someone to do for me?" & I just do it for others ~ especially children. 

I constantly keep asking this question to myself today as I did when I was a child trying to get away from my abusers - who the law said I was legally bound too. Asking and answering this question daily still gives me strength to move forward, keep hoping in the most distress of circumstances and gives me reason to smile each and every day.

What is your mission of "What would you have wanted someone to do for you?" - Answer that and there you will you find your obsessive compassion to help others too. 

I guess all these scars that trauma did give to me has motivated me without fear to do for other children of what I wished someone would have done for me.

When we view the wrongs of our lives done to us by others - and start noticing those wrongs to make right and work at it to help another - we mend. We heal. We unite. 

We create our United Way - one person at a time. This theory of mine as I have explained before can be applied in everything about life. Do not wait until the tragedy is before you before you decide to get involved. For then, it will be too late. Do something extra ordinarily different now on the mission of your choice.

I choose to help children because I want to protect as many as I am able even if only in writing an email or voicing my concerns to the officials who have the authority to produce change. I wish this same compassion upon others to not only think of the best solution but feel the best solutions in heart - because those are truly the most rewarding in everything you can do in life. 

Don't you think it is about time we did more emotional heartfelt deposits in each other versus merely making money to put in a bank?

This is the article you can read. If you would like to join in my advocacy to help children retain their legal right to protection and safety against convicted criminals - then please read this article. 

Then email these two ladies who are considering making this law official. Do not be naive. What will become law in other countries will surely be law in America tomorrow? 

Best wishes on building your own United Way mission of doing for others - what you wished someone would have done for you:)

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/politics/conservative/8201521/Sex-offenders-including-paedophiles-should-be-allowed-to-adopt-Theresa-May-told.html

Helen Reece - H.Reece@lse.ac.uk
Honorable Theresa May - mayt@parliament.uk

DBT - Emotion's Best Friend

So what does each person do with all these emotions - when emotions start to feel as an enemy instead of a friend? Come on now, I am not the only one who has felt betrayed, anger, upset, hurt, and conflicted by emotions. If I am the only one - some one else is lying ~ is all I can say.

You know what I am talking about. The anger that boils your blood & races your heart 'cause someone said or did something that irritated the sanity out of you. Or someone did something to hurt you beyond repair. Their words literally cut you to the core of your soul. Your tears become the bleeding side effect. 

The first instinct is to say: "I don't care anymore." Phil Collins sums up perfectly in his song. I blare this song more than I should. I don't have to speak when I am emotionally conflicted because there are songs that do it for me & that works perfectly.

People so frequently misinterpret each other's words anyways. So what does it matter that no one asks for clarification to better understand what you say. What does it really matter that others get what you say or understand how you feel? Life continues to go on in the messy and chaotic disarray of emotional swing shifts anyways. Perpetrated by our own mental thoughts or emotional evaluations or neglect to evaluate our emotions - is more like it. 

The truth that we feel inside is not always right & it's not always wrong. But it's still nice when we when land those people who share the common bond of our emotional attachements or listen when we speak. They enjoy the same joys as we do or same focus and goals. 

The real common bond of people these days are so out of touch with reality or necessities of the  basic core components of emotions that honestly - emotions are the least of appreciation or respect that we give with others or think about how they feel or listen to what they say. 

I guarantee you that the general consensus would be that most people feel emotionally void by those closest to them in their life. Most people who are honest about their life are unhappy - unfulfilled - undirected and almost choreographed instead of happy in their daily lives, functions and roles. SO what do you do to make your emotions your best friend. 'Cause let's be real - our emotions - are our only best friend. In this world we enter alone and in the end - we go out alone. Emotions are the only consistent power or weakness we will ever have and the only truthful and loyalty we will be given.

We can create an internal enemy or an internal loyal, faithful, and honest friend by the way we view & improve or destruct our emotions. We do not need anyone to tell us that our anger is not validated or that our tears & pain is not real. Only each of us can define and understand why we feel like we do & if we ever let any one take that emotional connection from our self - we have lost our individuality anyways.

Dialectal Behavioral Therapy has become my emotion's best friend. This teacher is helping me to accept things I can not about my emotions and helping me to change the perception I have. The emotions I want to keep and how I currently deal with them and then changing what I do not like about my emtoins and how I define, manage, control and interact to embrace my emotions. It's not easy and is very time consuming but worth it. Do you know how many emotions a person has?

I am sure many would view emotions as something we do - that does not need further analysis or evaluation. We are just fine like we are - right? 

Everyone stubbornly says: "This is who I am. You deal with it 'cause the problem is yours and not mine. Accept all of me or none of me." - I completely disagree.

As time builds experiences behind me - I am aware of the long, drawn out soap box and soap opera I have lived in and survived. I feel the physical pains and irritations every day. I hear the medical symptoms of my life produced by many things beyond my control. I hear constantly from those around me that I am not "That Person They Use to Know"; & this female is slipping away because of I do this differently now or don't do this at all anymore.

But everyone points at me - feels compelled to tell me how I should be or should not be. When all the while - they forget that I am my own person, capable of doing what I have for me and always have. They'll never get that I don't believe in a straight line of life. I believe that life is a roller coaster that is to be accepted, appreciated, embraced, learnt from and to never quit learning and adapting those new lessons of skills that one gains. I am a minority on this & none more important than emotions.

I can not relate to people of conformity or people that front life as if their illusion they give - depends on their life. Because something always happens in a person's life that changes everything usually for the worst and not for the better. 

A person must be adaptable and strong and even brave - to learn new skills to cope to thrive, survive, and to live again when these horrific things happen. Usually, many can live out a ripe old biological age without medical intervention or medical issues. But when the time comes that medical hits their life - it can literally make or break them.

So how do so many survive when faced with adversity? They either learn new skills to cope and move on in a positive manner. Or like many other - they succumb their life to their own devices to making their life worse than trying the unknown to make it better.

DBT has taught me to be really proud of myself. To appreciate who I am. To stand up vocally for myself & others who need some one to be their vocals. To hang onto my emotions & change them when it's helpful to me. More than anything, DBT has taught me that sometimes - people will not understand & you have to be forgiving to them. You have to use discretion of who is worth your tears of pain or anger that they cause you & get rid of those who are taking more emotionally from you than you receive of positive from them.

I have been in company of so many manipulators, liars, thieves, criminals, hypocrites and wrong doers in my life - that it is a miracle that I have never been committed nor on prescriptions medications that tell when to think or meds that keep me zoned out of my emotional feelings or honestly - incarcerated as a felon yet. 

The odds of my life have truly been far more against me that I would land in one of these three destinations than not because too many before me have reached these destinations and the odds are extreme that it usually will happen, eventually.

Fingers crossed. Emotions embraced and self-control of my own self acceptance of personal responsibility for what I do & do not do - has always kept me on that thin line of being in society versus being behind those plate glass windows or bars. 

I am stubborn, motivated, and compassionately hearted in the right direction - even when I screw up - that I want to be that one example of how to help your self & not hurt your self worse & perhaps help others in the process of my own bizarre progressions. 

I focus on how to achieve happy even in the saddest, hardest, or most complicated of my realities. Even if happy isn't here today - I never lose sight of trying again for happy tomorrow.

I don't want to be any one's else inspiration, motivation or envy or jealously by my over zealous tendencies of mistakes & perfections. I just want to keep trying to make many wrongs I have experienced & witnessed & keeping moving forward - to make it right for someone else. 

I do all this for me 'cause I am worth it emotionally, logically, scientifically, medically and as a human being. I deserve to treated with respect, unconditional love, and as a good person that I am. If I do not do this and learn skills how to treat me how I deserve - then I can not expect anyone else to love me as I love myself nor for me to trust and allow others to get to know me as well. I wouldn't be able to relate to others and help their pains or help assist them in their struggles if I could not keep picking up my own self. I do this for me for so many reasons.

I want to be that mother to myself I never knew or had - even in my own mother. I want to be that father to myself that I never knew or had - even with my own father. I want to be that sister to myself that I never knew or had - with my own sister.   I want to be that brother to myself that I never had & never knew - with my own brother. I want to be my own best friend. Giving, receiving, sharing, being patience, being kind, being fun, being happy & being in joy because I never gave up on me to find and accomplish these things from within - so I could give, share, receive, trust, and help others too.

Words of conversation and emotional exterior all begin from within. DBT gives you a source of tapping into the core of your words, conversations, and how to embrace your emotions and yourself without hurting more than you already are - without being angry with things that you can not change anyways & how to cope safely and heal with patience from the wrongs done to you. It's not easy. We all have been wronged & hurt in the name & actions of love.

Human beings are not a perfect species. There is no perfect species. Our instincts to defend and offend to protect our self is a safety mechanism in each of us. Some use it more fluently than others but for most - they do have to learn new skills to help them gain a safety mechanism that someone else either stole from them or medical conditions thieved from them or simply because a person doesn't know how to love and appreciate their self and accept all the beautiful glory of who they are.

If your day hasn't arrived yet of: "A Person You Use to Know," then be patient with time because your time will come too. You'll be looking back and wondering where the 16 year-old in you went or the 25 year-old in you went. Before you know it, half a decade will be gone by and you'll have 50 years of emotions behind you and in your memory bank.

I don't know about you or most - but I do want to challenge myself just to see how much of a decade I can conquer. I want that trail behind to say, "Dang, that girl is crazy, tough, brave, strong, and not afraid to try anything to the end of my life." I want people to celebrate my final day as a testament of how the unexplainable and the not easily understood aspects of a person life can still make a difference to others. I want others to smile for me and smile with me. That a long journey has ended and the new will begin by the life of an emotional girl who was not afraid to keep moving forward even when science, medicine and logic said she couldn't!  

I wish this for each of you as well. That you will not be afraid in life to leap when others safely stay on the mountain or not be afraid to feel life. There is truly no greater peace to be obtained when you accept your tears, soothe your anger, smile with your happiness, and appreciate who you are. 

 We also have a hidden security of strength too! That nothing or no one is: "Normal." But until we each believe this individually - we'll always let others tell us what to do - how we should feel - what our goals are - what our daily focus & function should be & most of all - we lose our self to be someone else's "Normal." Do not do this to yourself nor let anyone do that to you.

Create who you want to be. Learn. Research. Educate. Do not be afraid. Become who you want too so when the day comes when you do view back on your life of: "A Person I Use to Know" - will the proudest and most loved person you know - YOURSELF!